Let it be me.

Ray LaMontagne, you steal my heart everytime I listen to you.

Nothing matters.

Cause I'm going to Paris in two weeks :D :D
This will be the first in a series of short trips this summer.

I've lost track of the days.

I'm usually not the best at keeping up with what day it is but being off work for over a week has seriously messed me up. I know it's Friday only because Hannah went to a party. Well it's now Saturday, 5:34 am to be exact. I'm wide awake listening to the rain. So soothing, not enough to get me asleep though. 


I've had such a good week bar not being able to walk..I've seen Sue loads and plan on seeing her tonight when my wife is babysitting. The plan for the day was to flake in the sun  with H, but I doubt there will be any sun cause it's looking pretty bleak out there.


Friday was a lonely day. I was by myself all day apart from my brother and dad being in the house but they don't count. I watched 4 and a half films. And drank loads of cans of diet coke in a glass with a slice of lime, fav. Talked to Gaj, Mark and Carpo on skype. That was nice. Hannah called too, but she always calls <3


I had a barbecue on Thursday. It wasn't mad sunny but it was nice. We ate inside anyways. Sue and her mom collected me and we headed to dunnes to get all the food. We got loads for 26 euro. We had a feast anyways we were all so full, burgers, baked potatoes, corn on the cob, chocolate, ice pops. We were in mine from about 3 till 11, just chatting and laughing. I didn't use my crutches all day. I just hopped around and occasionally leaned on my ankle but really regretted it later at about 12 when I started to ball my eyes out cause of the pain. This is killing me.


Wednesday was delish. I went to Sue's and we sat in the sun for the better part of the day. We went on the trampoline and cause I can't jump, she did and I just flaked out in the sun that was trying to break through the branches of the tree  <3


Monday and Tuesday were just sleepy days due to pain. 


I rather writing one long blog then loads of little ones. Soz if you hate that.

I won't stop complaining till it's gone away.

I fell on Saturday night and hurt my ankle. Stupidly stayed out all night on it and probably made it a little worse. I was supposed to go to the hospital straight away but I was a little to drunk and just went home to bed. Hannah came over before the gig, which I was actually so annoyed I was missing, she looked after me a little, helping me up and stuff. She left and I passed out till my dad came home to bring me to the hospital.


The pain was actually unbearable.. I was sitting in a&e balling my eyes out even though they gave me some serious pain killer. I think I'm just shit with pain cause I got an xray and it's not broken or nothing it's a sprain and soft tissue damage, so basically just really badly bruised. It hurts like a bitch though. I'm on 2 pain killers every 4 hours along with 1 anti inflammatory every 4 hours. I can still feel the pain but I think the painkillers take most of the pain away. If that makes sense. I'm off work till next Wednesday, but it's not like I can do anything. I would appreciate visitors, if you love me :) 


Hangouts today were so good :)

My heart told my head, this time no.

There's something wrong with me, I usually cry at anything sad and I just don't anymore. Well haven't in a while. I just watched two of the most emotional Grey's Anatomy's ever and not one single tear, wtf. I used to ball at every single episode. I cried for the whole of Dear John and haven't cried since. So weird. Not so emo anymore I guess. 


I just had a delish Friday. Went for lunch with my dad in Avoca, it was so good. We had the chats and bought flowers. Ran into my uncles soon to be ex wife. She's a fucking nut job. My dad ignored her, go on the dad. 


After that I went to my friend Susie's house. Seen her brother had seen him in years cause he's been in college in Limerick. Anyway, drank copious amounts of tea and chatted.. Gaj then collected me, along with Alisha and Hannah. We headed for dinner cause Gaj is off to Boston for the summer, SO jealous. 


Then headed to Killiney beach. Met Ciara, Claire and Gav. Sat on the tea rooms playing summer tunes, chatting and I nursed a sol, it was pretty delish.  We headed back to the car, put some tunes on played a bitta frisbee. I lost the frisbee so we got a tennis ball and played piggy in the middle like 8 year olds. It was lolz. I fell over as per usual. Also got a tennis ball in the eye.


Now I'm home, chilling with all the candles lit in my room. I should sleep gotta go to work for 11. 


Peace out, blog x

Sitting, staring, waiting.

The clock on my sitting room wall is ticking, 19 years and I never noticed it tick before.

And can you lie next to her and confess your love

I love everything about Mumford and Sons. 

An update on me not sleeping and other bits.

I'd give anything, ANYTHING to have a normal sleeping pattern. 

I don't mind staying up late and getting zero hours sleep, I can deal with that, it's my own fault cause I don't try and sleep, I just stay awake and think. All I do is think and dwell, think and dwell, think and dwell. 

For a while I could sleep easy. Everything was grand, everything is still grand, better than ever actually. Closer then ever to my best friends, getting closer to a friend that I missed so much, getting closer to new people. But all I can think about is one stupid fucking thing, over and over. It's not even an important thing, well I guess it is if I care so much but I don't want to care about it and it is consuming the hours that I should be using for sleep. How annoying.

Fuck it anyways, I will do my best to make it better.

Watch Whip it! and fall in love Landon Pigg. 

Flights to Boston are over 700 euro. Summer plans on hold. 

I'm listening to Rod Stewart and Dolly Parton a lot. Pretty embarrassed for myself, to be honest.

Missing my mum after talking about her yesterday. Sigh.

Hmmmph.

Stuck in a rut. 
Sometimes I wish people were a little more open.

You hid there last time.

I'm not working as much anymore. 3 or 4 days a week and not full days. It makes working a whole lot easier. I'm not as sick of it anymore. It makes a lot of things easier. I realised this today whilst dusting a shelf. 

Sometimes I have no feelings, like I'm numb.
I don't want to be numb.

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Nights like these...

So attractive.




It's the best person in the world's birthday today.

And this..always

I'm really enjoying my own company today (:

Soundtrack to my life at the moment.

I hate when things get confusing.

I had such a good weekend, yay.

You just keep on saying the same thing, over and over.

Bank Holiday Sunday. I should have mad plans for tonight but I didn't and now I'm sitting at home alone, doing nothing like most nights. I'm in work tomorrow, anyhow. My laptop wouldn't connect to the wireless earlier so i had to amuse myself so I went to tesco and got loads of photos printed out. 60 for like 15 euro, that's pretty good considering it's 10 euro to get 36 developed off a role. So I had already started a collage on my wall cause I know that I will NEVER get my room done up and my walls are in bits from taking down old posters. This is the result of my boredom.

I seriously hate my bedroom. I'm about to start cleaning it now.

I wish I had a normal sleeping pattern.

It's like rain on your wedding day.

Blogging from the dart, just cause i can. Seriously enjoying my new phone. I opted not to get an iPhone cause I realised how much I can't stand touch screens.


Anyway, heading to work for a 3 hour shift. Easy peasy. I hope people go shopping despite the fact that it looks like it's going to piss rain. It just started to lash, fuck.


I lost all my music during the week and Gajb came over last night before we headed to extreme pizza to give me some of his music. Now I'm sorted, well kinda. Still have some other things to download, anyway he had Alanis Morissette and I was like FUCK, NEED THAT. So now I can't stop listening to it. It reminds me so much of my sister, big gay head on her. Which reminds me that, she's home tomorrow or Monday, we're not sure.




I just got home and realised that I never posted this. So, I am not posting from the dart..I'm on my couch watching my new fav tv show, peak season. It's so good. I get hooked on ridic shows way to easily.


Work was busy, which was good. I have some of the best customers sometimes... My fav one is John.. He's like 50 and gay. He loves me and one of the other lads, Adam. He comes it and buys loads and is just always so nice and funny and gives me hugs and kisses on the cheek.  He came in today anyways and got me to ring his phone so I could hear his Glee ringtone..of course it was Sue Silvester singing Vogue by Madonna... so then he decided we should watch the video to it and of course he has every episode of Glee on his iphone... Awh he's just too good <3 I had another two lads in who I was talking to about Jersey Shore for about 10 minutes. I also had a very cute little boy in who just learned how to yoyo and it he kept showing me. These were 3 nice things to pass my three hour shift.


I'm an emotional wreck tonight. I went to see Dear John with Hannah. TOO good. I had tears in my eyes for the whole film although I could of just been crying cause Channing Tatum is beautiful. 




Tv show over, listening to Alanis Morissette. AGAIN.