Can't believe I did it again.

I'm under house arrest. My dad won't let me leave the house cause last time I hurt my ankle I couldn't sit still and it def didn't heal properly so now he's not taking any chances. I actually CAN'T believe I did this just walking to the car, ugh. 

After spending 4 and a bit hours in A&E I finally seen a doctor, who was actually atrocious...I mean firstly, the nurse was an idiot.."Is it sore?" "NO, I'm just balling my eyes out for no reason. (you idiot)" "is there anything else wrong?" "No.." "Then why are you crying?" "ARE YOU SERIOUS I'M OBVIOUSLY IN SO MUCH PAIN" "well you'll be waiting a while.." I wanted to ring her neck. 

Then my doctor, well you've got a sprained ankle, so it's a little worse then last time.. here's a doctors note. "Do I not need some pain killers?" "Oh yeah you probably should take some." "Ehhh, like what? Last time I got prescriptions for anti inflammatories and pain killers" "well you got a difene injection earlier" "That didn't work" My dad chimes in with something about difene and the doctor tells me to take his difene which he needs.. and then just leaves..

So basically paying 100 euro for an injection that didn't work and to be told to take my dads pain meds, so sound. not.

Didn't get home till after 5am :(((((

I have a doctors note for a week off work but I'm to go back to my gp to extend it if my ankle is still sore. If it's anything like it was a week after last time I don't think I should go back to work.. Then I'll feel bad for calling in sick again but I can't help it, really can I? But jobs don't look at it that way, which annoys me. You work so hard for them and they seem to be annoyed that you've taken time off for something that wasn't necessarily your own fault and all they wanna know is when you'll be back to work.. rageface.

I've been slipping in and out of sleeps all day cause of the pain killers and now it's 6:41am and I can't sleep :(((

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn.

I make no effort at all anymore, why should I when I feel like I am always the one left to.


Fuck that.

This week has been one of the better weeks in my life.

Last Saturday, Kate's 23rd birthday. Drinks in Kate's apartment which is right beside the phoenix park and is lovely. So much malibu, so much cava. Headed off into town, stopped in some old man pub for one drink. I vaguely remember there being a giant labrador walking around :D Went to pygmalion, gee eyed at this stage and headed home pretty soon after arriving. Died in work on Sunday. 


Monday, 5.45 am start.  Bus, plane, bus, metro, metro, hotel, thunder storm, PARIS. I love everything about Paris it's so pretty and being there with my fav two was amazing. Eye watering laughs. Too good. Got everything we wanted to do done in paris. Le tour eiffle <3333

Wednesday 5 am start. Metro metro, bus, plane, bus, home, BED.


Thursday, work at 9.30. Flew by. Then straight to Susie's for sun hangouts. Walked to Dalkey, was so good out. Home, was asleep by one, delish. 


Friday, up at 12. Helped Aine decorate the function room for her 21st, went to Dun Laoghaire to get 10,000 crates of beer. Home, got ready, got drunk, partied, danced on tables and chairs, screamed at Dick, fortune cookies telling the truth, chats in the playground, 5am air humping, Susie fake snoring in my bed, not sleeping till 6.


Saturday, work at 9.30 off at half one. Went to Susie's. Sat in the sun. Her mom brought out a box of all old photo's and letters. It was amazing. There were love letters <3 I read them all. It made me want a typewriter so much :( Home at 11 got my dad to try on some clothes I bought him. My dad is a carhartt dad, love it. Asleep by 1.


Sunday, market with Hannah. Everyone needs to come out to the market in the park in Dun Laoghaire. So much good food. Got a Falafel and a King kofta for dinner, nom. Met up with my Dad, he brought us to the Mini market in Dalkey and we met Susie, went back to Hannah's and chilled in the sun, had dinner and then went to the cinema. <3

Yeah, that's it.

BAM.

I do not want to live here anymore.

Next summer I will be an Au Pair. I can't see anything changing that would make me want to stay here. It's the easiest way to get out of the country and have a secure job without having to pay rent or have a visa. I would do it now but hello college in September. Weird.

Sick with excitement.

3 days.

Arc de Triomphe

La Tour Eiffel

Notre Dame

Champs Élysées

Cimetiére du Pére-Lachaise

Le Seine

Def googled all them in french. 

Hi blog.

I haven't wrote one in a while so eh, why not.. I guess.

I do nothing with my life so I dunno what to write about now. I'm back at work after hurting my ankle..it's still pretty fucked but it's ok to walk on sort of. I'll have to deal with it anyways cause I cant afford to take more sick days. I'm working the next four days then I'm off to Paris so by the time I get back from Paris I'll be wrecked cause I usually catch up on sleep on my days off and I won't be cause I will be wondering around the streets of PARIS :D I will keep mentioning Paris cause I am so exited. LOVE YOU PARIS.

I'm in the mood to read. I never finished Helter Skelter so I'm gonna finish it.. I stopped cause I got a bit freaked just cause I knew it actually happened. If you don't know what Helter Skelter is about, find out and then read it. After that I think I will read Princess, A Thousand Splendid Suns and then The Kite Runner. All books that I have and haven't read. Then I will look at what else I have..Probably will read The Perks of Being A Wallflower again too for about the millionth time.

I went to Ikea with my brother and my dad yesterday after work and we spent about 500 euro, it was class! Got loads of stuff for my brothers room cause it had yet to be furnished after he had got it done up. I picked out everything I want for my bed room when it gets done up which will be during the summer, I swear. if not I will cry so much.

Missing someone you know but don't really know is weird.

Bye blog.

Let it be me.

Ray LaMontagne, you steal my heart everytime I listen to you.

Nothing matters.

Cause I'm going to Paris in two weeks :D :D
This will be the first in a series of short trips this summer.

I've lost track of the days.

I'm usually not the best at keeping up with what day it is but being off work for over a week has seriously messed me up. I know it's Friday only because Hannah went to a party. Well it's now Saturday, 5:34 am to be exact. I'm wide awake listening to the rain. So soothing, not enough to get me asleep though. 


I've had such a good week bar not being able to walk..I've seen Sue loads and plan on seeing her tonight when my wife is babysitting. The plan for the day was to flake in the sun  with H, but I doubt there will be any sun cause it's looking pretty bleak out there.


Friday was a lonely day. I was by myself all day apart from my brother and dad being in the house but they don't count. I watched 4 and a half films. And drank loads of cans of diet coke in a glass with a slice of lime, fav. Talked to Gaj, Mark and Carpo on skype. That was nice. Hannah called too, but she always calls <3


I had a barbecue on Thursday. It wasn't mad sunny but it was nice. We ate inside anyways. Sue and her mom collected me and we headed to dunnes to get all the food. We got loads for 26 euro. We had a feast anyways we were all so full, burgers, baked potatoes, corn on the cob, chocolate, ice pops. We were in mine from about 3 till 11, just chatting and laughing. I didn't use my crutches all day. I just hopped around and occasionally leaned on my ankle but really regretted it later at about 12 when I started to ball my eyes out cause of the pain. This is killing me.


Wednesday was delish. I went to Sue's and we sat in the sun for the better part of the day. We went on the trampoline and cause I can't jump, she did and I just flaked out in the sun that was trying to break through the branches of the tree  <3


Monday and Tuesday were just sleepy days due to pain. 


I rather writing one long blog then loads of little ones. Soz if you hate that.

I won't stop complaining till it's gone away.

I fell on Saturday night and hurt my ankle. Stupidly stayed out all night on it and probably made it a little worse. I was supposed to go to the hospital straight away but I was a little to drunk and just went home to bed. Hannah came over before the gig, which I was actually so annoyed I was missing, she looked after me a little, helping me up and stuff. She left and I passed out till my dad came home to bring me to the hospital.


The pain was actually unbearable.. I was sitting in a&e balling my eyes out even though they gave me some serious pain killer. I think I'm just shit with pain cause I got an xray and it's not broken or nothing it's a sprain and soft tissue damage, so basically just really badly bruised. It hurts like a bitch though. I'm on 2 pain killers every 4 hours along with 1 anti inflammatory every 4 hours. I can still feel the pain but I think the painkillers take most of the pain away. If that makes sense. I'm off work till next Wednesday, but it's not like I can do anything. I would appreciate visitors, if you love me :) 


Hangouts today were so good :)